If I just break my leg a little…simulator check

If a car just hit me ever so carefully and I break my leg just a little, or if I accidentally just fall and break my arm maybe then I don’t have to do my simulator check?

Thoughts that go around in my head every time I am scheduled for simulator.

Every six month we have to do a simulator check where they put us in situations that we would normally *knock on wood* be in. Engine failures, smoke in the cabin, non-normal situations etc. It’s a stressful situation where we are checked on every single move that we take or say. Don’t get me wrong, I want to do the check, I learn a lot and I know how important they are for a safe operation, that doesn’t make them any less stressful, I want to do well and I put pressure on me.

I let the instructor know that I was nervous and he assured that there were nothing to be nervous about, that most of us do get a bit nervous. I don’t know why I’m like that, generally I’m not a nervous kind of person. I like to believe that I’m someone who maintains my calm throughout most situations, but it’s something about being checked, especially in something that I love so much. I was nervous when I took my ATPL exams too. 14 subjects that you need to pass with at least 75% pass mark. No matter if I were sure that I would pass, I would still sit until last minute before submitting for my results.

So here I was, woke up early the day of my simulator even if my check wasn’t before 6 pm that day. The checks normally take around 6-7 hours, five hours scheduled in the simulator, an hour briefing and debriefing. I took the bus to our sim center and arrived there approximately half an hour before briefing, still thinking, maybe I just slip and break my leg, oh is that a headache? Maybe I’m sick? I shouldn’t be in the simulator if I’m sick, I can get the Captain and the instructor sick, I have to go home, that’s the right thing to do, right? You know the classic picture when you have a devil on one side of your shoulders and an angel on the other, the devil telling you to do the bad thing and the angel trying to stop you from doing it. That is pretty much how I feel right now, the little shoulder-devil telling me to go home but at the same time the wise angel letting me know that there’s no way to get out of it, if I don’t do it today I’ll have to do it sooner or later anyway, it comes with being a pilot and there is no way out of it!

As we sat in the briefing room going through what we would do on the check it started to feel better. I was paired together with a really nice and experienced Captain (Who would have thought that four years later we would cross path again and that he’s now the man I want to spend the rest of my life with #DitchingTogether – 2023) our instructor was calm and friendly. Once in the simulator time ‘flew’ passed and back in what felt like a breath we were back in the briefing room. You have no idea the feeling that I have today, after two days of intense training and weeks of studying beforehand, you know when you have a cold or the flu and you can’t remember what it felt like before you were sick, that’s the feeling I have when I see that I’m scheduled for my 6 months check, afterward it’s like the whole world opened up and I don’t know what to do with all spare time, so as I write this I’m sitting on the train on my way to London for some well-deserved shopping.

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  1. Andreas Wehn
    January 18, 2019 / 4:28 pm

    Wonderful story, it’s normal for you to get nervous during a test, and after the exam, you’ll lose a huge chunk of rock. I hope you passed the exam? πŸ‘πŸ˜ƒ

  2. Brice
    January 18, 2019 / 5:24 pm

    I think you meant Meteorology and not Metrology. Otherwise I may lack a subject in my ATPL πŸ˜‰
    Good article though. I wonder if some pilots do like doing those Sim checks or if it gets less stressful with time ? πŸ€”

  3. Lee Botham
    January 19, 2019 / 12:09 pm

    Great story Maria, thankyou for taking timeout to share your experiences…. let us know how you got on…… happy shopping 😊

    • pilotmaria
      January 19, 2019 / 12:34 pm

      Hihi Thank You 😁😁

  4. January 19, 2019 / 1:17 pm

    Thank you for sharing, Maria! No where near your skills or caliber, but as a private pilot SEL, I always dreaded the “unusual attitudes” under the hood, and I had a particularly sadistic instructor. Always walked away in one piece and feeling better about myself for having performed the way I was supposed to, but my shirt was dripping wet when I popped out of that C-152. So………..your comments above I TOTALLY sympathize with! Thank you again for sharing your life with us, I hope this finds you in good health and with wonderful adventures laying ahead of you!

    • pilotmaria
      January 19, 2019 / 6:16 pm

      Aww that’s awful with a sadistic instructor πŸ™ˆ know that not all are like that and remember that it’s your training that you’re paying for, you have the right to ask for a different instructor!

  5. Harry Bunn
    January 20, 2019 / 12:25 am

    Hi Maria,
    I enjoy reading your blogs. I’m surprised you were so nervous. However, I guess it is how you turn your nervous feelings into correct and safe actions during your test.
    Lets be honest during your 5Hr “flight” you and your Captain will be subjected to a whole series of incidents that the two of you – working as a team will have to mitigate. Those mitigation actions would have to be seen to be completed in accordance with your company operating instructions and the Pilots Notes whilst speaking clearly as a check against your actions and activities that the CVR can pick up on.
    The amount of mitigation required, during your test, may well represent a fair slice of your entire pilots career – as far as issues are concerned. No body is going to be injured if the two of you “get it wrong” in the simulator.
    Clearly, it is important that you don’t make mistakes on the flight deck during a flight. Your actions in a true emergency would often be “automated” in the their completion and part of the memory retention required is refreshed, in a safe environment, during your mandated six monthly check.
    Hope you passed ok.
    Safe take offs and landings….

  6. Curtis K.
    January 24, 2019 / 3:27 pm

    Maria – Hej!
    I dreaded annual check outs and the simulator always made my stomach queasy (peppermints helped). My qual checks and instrument checks were annual (not every 6 mo.) and challenged my nerves, but they were necessary to keep flying. The thing that helped me justify all the studying & enduring the flight checks was the thought that I would be ready to handle the emergencies should they ever occur. Unlike civil aviation, our military training allowed us to go out and practice our emergency procedures & maneuvers during training sorties which built confidence and proficiency. You have a really great story (saw your Ted YouTube video) – greatly enjoy your Facebook and videos helps me get through my day flying a desk. Don’t know how you can blog and keep up with your flying schedule! Think we have the same watches (Breitling Navitimers). Curtis K (retired Bell 212/412 pilot)

  7. February 14, 2019 / 11:21 am

    Needless to say you’re enjoying the great life. Thanks for sharing your story. Wish you all the best. 😊

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